Reflection

by Not of Man

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released 11 February 2013

Kurtis Forsythe, Zach Shipman

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Not of Man Los Angeles, California

The two met in 1992 and always had musical interests to bands such as tool nine inch nails and a perfect circle seplutura, korn, coal chamber, Recording at the age of 16 and 18, Forsythe and Shipman always use a collaboration of style and technique they presently deliver their project started as a tool to expand their knowledge of sound production and songwriting ... more

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Track Name: Fallout
Hold on, this might take long
Fighting for life so I can carry on
I'm losing what I used to be
Maybe it’s time I find out what that means to me

Everything I used to be (ill tear it down ill tear it down)
What once was close to me (is so far now, so far now)
All of the hopes and dreams (falling down, falling down)
What does it mean to me (nothing now, nothing now)

So hold on, hold your breath
While I try to find myself inside my head
I’m closer to the answer
While fleeing from this great disaster

Everything I used to be (ill tear it down ill tear it down)
What once was close to me (is so far now, so far now)
All of the hopes and dreams (falling down, falling down)
What does it mean to me (nothing now, nothing now)

So tell me if you find
Something left inside
I’m searching for the pieces
Buried deep within my mind
And if you find the place
Within an empty space
We can build another life
We can find our way

Everything I used to be (ill tear it down ill tear it down)
What once was close to me (is so far now, so far now)
All of the hopes and dreams (falling down, falling down)
What does it mean to me (nothing now, nothing now)
Track Name: We're the Wicked
Underneath the skin
Waiting to reform
The surface peels away
Yet the feeling is reborn
Digging further through the flesh
Not seeing how it all connects
Needing something that is new
Desperately need to show you

We’re the wicked
Together we will make them cold
We’re the wicked
Look inside my empty soul
We’re the wicked
Join me in oblivion
We’re the wicked
Let bring this world to its end

Tear apart the wall
To reach the other side
Keep falling in the cracks
That you have left behind
Visualize the darkest red
I hear the voices in my head
I need you to understand

We’re the wicked
Together we will make them cold
We’re the wicked
Look inside my empty soul
We’re the wicked
Join me in oblivion
We’re the wicked
Let bring this world to its end

I am here inside this place
Leaving clues along the way
In this darkness I hope to find
Some life inside this great divide
Where the roads fall at your feet
Every step leads to defeat
Where the sky burns in grey
In the wind I can hear them say

We’re the wicked
Together we will make them cold
We’re the wicked
Look inside my empty soul
We’re the wicked
Join me in oblivion
We’re the wicked
Let bring this world to its end
Track Name: Dorian
Trapped within this feral state
Open to the wounds I’ve made
Making silence seem so clear
Wishing I could be right here

I'm falling away further from myself
The deeper I fall the more I’m someone else
I look in the void and see what I’ve become
Just a broken man trapped in my own reflection

At first a whisper in my ear
No response to what I hear
The more it speaks the more it’s clear
I wish that I could be right here

I'm falling away further from myself
The deeper I fall the more I’m someone else
I look in the void and see what I’ve become
Just a broken man trapped in my own reflection

I'm falling away further from myself
The deeper I fall the more I’m someone else
I look in the void and see what I’ve become
Just a broken man trapped in my own reflection
Track Name: A Cold Embrace
Within this room
Darkness is a monotonous shade
Each day blends together creating a blur
Even darker than before
The monotone echoes of suffering
Resonate through this hollow chamber
I find comfort in the solace
Red is absent of the unknown
If you feel the need to find me
I am here
Becoming one with its foundation
Becoming part of its shadow
Disembodied into an element
When you reach this place
When you feel the cold grip your bones
Know that it was nothing more
Than my embrace
Track Name: Imprint
Bow down to me
I'm the one whose gonna make you see
Broken, so weak
Is the heart that you gave to me?
I am the strength
That you failed to resurrect
I am the man made of the boy you could not protect

Empty, is the hand that was meant to feed
Empty, is the life that you gave to me
Empty, are the arms that were meant to hold
Empty, that's why I feel like I have no soul

Where did you go wrong?
Who will you try to blame
Act as the victim of a circumstance you made
Always on the run while pushing life away
Leaving me to raise myself
I'm better of this way

Profound this hole
That you left deep in my soul
Unsound the mind
Of the child you left alone
Heartless you make an effort to avoid your life
Endless your shame obligations left behind

Empty, is the hand that was meant to feed
Empty, is the life that you gave to me
Empty, are the arms that were meant to hold
Empty, that's why I feel like I have no soul

Where did you go wrong?
Who will you try to blame
Act as the victim of a circumstance you made
Always on the run while pushing life away
Leaving me to raise myself
I'm better of this way

And you will know my pain
And you will know my rage

Where did you go wrong?
Who will you try to blame
Act as the victim of the circumstance you made
Always on the run while pushing life away
Leaving me to raise myself
I'm better of this way

This way
I'm better off this way
Better off this way
I'm better off this way
Track Name: My Wreckage
Give in, there's no need to try and stop me
Feel me, slowly take apart your sanity
I am, the itch that you can't seem to scratch
I am, here to watch you slowly crack
Your time has come I'm counting down
My will has finally come around
Now wrap your arms around your legs
Don't resist give in to me

If you're out there then what you see
Is the monster possessing me
For this moment I've held him back
So that I can reach for a helping hand
Hey you, look upon your broken friend
Watch me, lock him up inside his head
So weak, I can feel him wearing down
Hey you, how will you try to save him now
I will tear apart his soul
I will turn him in to stone

If your out there then what you hear
Is the monster of my fears
His nails are digging further in
Becoming hard to resist
Coherence is shortening
He's taking over, becoming me
For this moment I've held him back
To try and help you understand
I need a helping hand
Track Name: Reflection
My purpose has been eradicated
A showdown I’ve become
Just a disembodied silhouette
That I’m always running from
My motives have been pacified
My hands tied behind my back
Force to see the very part of me
I’ve tried so hard to make
Though I could forget

The ghost that follows me
He haunts my memories
With every sequence he is there
I wish he’d disappear

Venerable just like an open wound
My grip has been released
Finding out about myself this way
Is the only way it seems
Why must I beat myself into defeat?
So sick of picking nails out of my feet
So tired of this weight upon my back
If I listen will I understand?


The ghost that follows me
He haunts my memories
With every sequence he is there
I wish he’d disappear
The more I try to hide
The more he comes to life
I wish I couldn’t see
The ghost in front of me

This fucking ghost of me.
This ghost of me.
Track Name: Gabriel's Posing
Let’s assume this is your final day
Are you happy with the choices you have made?
Well you can hide the coward you have inside
You will wear it for the rest of your life
Your cross awaits you

Crucify yourself again
One more time for deliverance
Like your Christ you will resurrect
Just to hang yourself back up again

Two faces lost your place
All your shame keeps building up inside
Someday you will face the monster that has built up over time
What have you become
Have you lost touch with humanity?
Your weak come to terms
With the coward and end this tragedy

You’re a sheep lying with the wolves
You wear their fur so they can’t see your wool
Well don’t you see they have picked up on your sent?
They plan to feed with knives and forks in hand
Your cross awaits you

Crucify yourself again
One more time for deliverance
Like your Christ you will resurrect
Just to hang yourself back up again

Two faces lost your place
All your shame keeps building up inside
Someday you will face the monster that has built up over time
What have you become
Have you lost touch with humanity?
Your weak come to terms
With the coward and end this tragedy

You think you’re a man
When you secretly beat on your chest
Hiding behind a person of interest
We can see all of your weaknesses
It makes up your entire existence

Two faces lost your place
All your shame keeps building up inside
Someday you will face the monster that has built up over time
What have you become
Have you lost touch with humanity?
Your weak come to terms
With the coward and end this tragedy
Track Name: Within this Moment
Beyond the shade I can see the sun
Beyond the grey the colors run
I wish that I could freeze in time
I’d saturate within its light
Please don’t wake me up this time
In this dream I feel just fine

I feel warm rays against my skin
I feel a pulse with my chest
My heart beats for its first time
In this dream I feel alive

When suddenly I opened up my eyes
Awake and still dead inside
IL try to find that dream
Where the light shined down on me
Where the warmth had held me close
Tried to save it in my soul

I think ill never know
A life without regret
Or feel a heart within my chest
Or feel the warmth of a smile
Free from the chains of my denial
How can I leave this place?
How can I change my fate?
When it’s all will ever know
It’s embedded in my soul

Nah, Nah, nah nah nah nah
Nah, nah, nah nah nah, nah, nah
Track Name: Escaping Euphoria
I observe the shadows as the lye right in front of me
I can swear that they have come to life
They keep on calling me, they say.....

Join us on the other side
Escape the confines of your mind
Leave behind your mortal flesh
Take the step and load another hit
Join us on the other side
Escapes the confines of your life
Leave the prison inside your head
It’s getting harder to resist

I need to find a new design
And redefine myself again
I need a place to erase
The fiends that live
Inside my head

I watch myself dematerialize
Turning into dust
I watch as the darkness
Engulfs the light
As it whispers become one of us

Join us on the other side
Escape the confines of your mind
Leave behind your mortal flesh
Take the step and load another hit
Join us on the other side
Escapes the confines of your life
Leave the prison inside your head
It’s getting harder to resist

I need to find a new design
And redefine myself again
I need a place to erase
The fiends that live
Inside my head

Get out of my head

I need to find a new design
And redefine myself again
I need a place to erase
The fiends that live
Inside my head

Get out of my head
Track Name: All the Fear is Gone
As it slips away
Try to control the waves
Gripping tight on everything I am
Its hands are reaching out
Trying to pull me down
And drag me to the hell from which it came

I climb I’ve crawled I’ve cried I’ve talked
I’ve tried to hide and write it off
I’ve shoved I’ve pulled and now I know that after all
All the fear is gone
I’ve begged complained I’ve screamed in rage
I’ve ran stood still I’ve disappeared
Reached in my soul and now I know
After all, all the fear is gone

You think you’ll be just fine
Without me in your mind
I’m the only thing left in your soul
Your weakness will infect
And you will manifest
Losing your sense of self control

I climb I’ve crawled I’ve cried I’ve talked
I’ve tried to hide and write it off
I’ve shoved I’ve pulled and now I know that after all
All the fear is gone
I’ve begged complained I’ve screamed in rage
I’ve ran stood still I’ve disappeared
Reached in my soul and now I know
After all, all the fear is gone

I climb I’ve crawled I’ve cried I’ve talked
I’ve tried to hide and write it off
I’ve shoved I’ve pulled and now I know that after all
All the fear is gone
I’ve begged complained I’ve screamed in rage
I’ve ran stood still I’ve disappeared
Reached in my soul and now I know
After all, all the fear is gone